Thank you all so very much

[bluespirit]

I just want to say a huge thank you for all the love & support at Rascal's passing.
I will reply to everyone but I'm still a bit numb at the moment.
I keep hearing him around the house & expecting to see him in his basket or coming to wake me up with a big black nose in my face first thing in the morning (the best way to be woken up ever!)
I haven't been able to put his things away yet - his beds & toys are still where he left them. I don't even want to hoover 'cus I'd be hoovering up his hairs.
I'll do it in my own time - perhaps when we get his ashes & bring him home for good.

In the meantime I've felt the need to be doing a lot of gardening for some reason. We've bought a rose bush to plant in Rask's memory. It's called 'Sunseeker' which we thought was appropriate as he always loved to lie in the sun - he'd follow a patch of sunlight all around the carpet & we had the conservatory built so that he could lie in there when he wanted. I'm comforted by the fact that even on his last morning with us he lay out on the patio in the sunshine.

I've ordered two big canvas prints of Rask - one for the lounge & one for the dining room (though I may get more.) We already have lots of photos of him around the house but I felt the need to stay connected, to be doing something Rascal-related & so I ordered them. They should be gorgeous (because he was) & I can't wait for them to arrive.

I know it's true that Rask had a good, long, happy life & that we have so many (many, many!) wonderful memories of him. However, at the moment I can't help wanting more - I have this gaping hole in my heart & I want him to be here. I know it will get easier with time but he was such a huge personailty.
My beautiful, silly, sweet boy. ♥


Here he is, soaking up the sun last year. (This is exactly where he lay on Wed morning - his favourite patio sunseeking spot!)

Comments

[pixiequeen10thk.livejournal.com]

I've been offline for awhile so I didn't realise. I'm so so sorry to hear that. The passing of a loved pet is always so hard. I still miss my lovely black cat Sootica even though she died many years ago. The canvas prints sound like an excellent idea. I keep a little pic of Sootie in my wallet. It always makes me smile. Sending many sympathies and hugs.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much & I am sorry to hear about Sootie too. I know how you feel. I still miss our family dog, Lordy - I was only four when we had him & nineteen when he passed. He was my childhood companion. I have his picture framed on the wall.
But yes, I've always carried a photo of Rask (playing with his Dad!) in my purse & it never fails to make me smile (though it's a little bittersweet right now, of course.)

*hugs*

[pixiequeen10thk.livejournal.com]

It does get easier with time. You miss them like crazy, but you can smile at the memories rather than just feeling incredibly sad whenever you think of them.

EDIT: for potentially embarassing typo. I may of said I get easier with time ;)

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

And you've made me smile - so thank you! *g*

[pixiequeen10thk.livejournal.com]

Glad to be of service :)