Thank you all so very much

[bluespirit]

I just want to say a huge thank you for all the love & support at Rascal's passing.
I will reply to everyone but I'm still a bit numb at the moment.
I keep hearing him around the house & expecting to see him in his basket or coming to wake me up with a big black nose in my face first thing in the morning (the best way to be woken up ever!)
I haven't been able to put his things away yet - his beds & toys are still where he left them. I don't even want to hoover 'cus I'd be hoovering up his hairs.
I'll do it in my own time - perhaps when we get his ashes & bring him home for good.

In the meantime I've felt the need to be doing a lot of gardening for some reason. We've bought a rose bush to plant in Rask's memory. It's called 'Sunseeker' which we thought was appropriate as he always loved to lie in the sun - he'd follow a patch of sunlight all around the carpet & we had the conservatory built so that he could lie in there when he wanted. I'm comforted by the fact that even on his last morning with us he lay out on the patio in the sunshine.

I've ordered two big canvas prints of Rask - one for the lounge & one for the dining room (though I may get more.) We already have lots of photos of him around the house but I felt the need to stay connected, to be doing something Rascal-related & so I ordered them. They should be gorgeous (because he was) & I can't wait for them to arrive.

I know it's true that Rask had a good, long, happy life & that we have so many (many, many!) wonderful memories of him. However, at the moment I can't help wanting more - I have this gaping hole in my heart & I want him to be here. I know it will get easier with time but he was such a huge personailty.
My beautiful, silly, sweet boy. ♥


Here he is, soaking up the sun last year. (This is exactly where he lay on Wed morning - his favourite patio sunseeking spot!)

Comments

[dalehead.livejournal.com]

You have the capacity to love a dog and that love should be lavished on another and that is exactly how Rask would want it. They're so unselfish, dogs, they ask so little and you gave your boy so much. It would be wrong to let that love die with him. *hugs very tight* You can't replace him, of course, but each dog finds their own niche in your life.

Bert has been a bit poorly but he's so bouncy now that he would sit on your feet and look up at you expecting lots of fussing and telling him what a sweetheart he is.

In the meantime, you'll know when it's right. I know what you mean about that void though. It's so hard, my poor darling girl. *hugs some more*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that you said that - it really helps 'cus sometimes I feel so guilty when we talk about having another dog but Rask would want us to share that love, I know he would.

I'm so sorry to hear about Bert - I hope he's fighting fit again & up to mischief as usual!
*huggles the Bertmeister*