Thank you all so very much

[bluespirit]

I just want to say a huge thank you for all the love & support at Rascal's passing.
I will reply to everyone but I'm still a bit numb at the moment.
I keep hearing him around the house & expecting to see him in his basket or coming to wake me up with a big black nose in my face first thing in the morning (the best way to be woken up ever!)
I haven't been able to put his things away yet - his beds & toys are still where he left them. I don't even want to hoover 'cus I'd be hoovering up his hairs.
I'll do it in my own time - perhaps when we get his ashes & bring him home for good.

In the meantime I've felt the need to be doing a lot of gardening for some reason. We've bought a rose bush to plant in Rask's memory. It's called 'Sunseeker' which we thought was appropriate as he always loved to lie in the sun - he'd follow a patch of sunlight all around the carpet & we had the conservatory built so that he could lie in there when he wanted. I'm comforted by the fact that even on his last morning with us he lay out on the patio in the sunshine.

I've ordered two big canvas prints of Rask - one for the lounge & one for the dining room (though I may get more.) We already have lots of photos of him around the house but I felt the need to stay connected, to be doing something Rascal-related & so I ordered them. They should be gorgeous (because he was) & I can't wait for them to arrive.

I know it's true that Rask had a good, long, happy life & that we have so many (many, many!) wonderful memories of him. However, at the moment I can't help wanting more - I have this gaping hole in my heart & I want him to be here. I know it will get easier with time but he was such a huge personailty.
My beautiful, silly, sweet boy. ♥


Here he is, soaking up the sun last year. (This is exactly where he lay on Wed morning - his favourite patio sunseeking spot!)

Comments

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, N.
I know it'll get easier eventually. We're bringing his ashes hom this evening & I think that will help. I'll feel happier/better once he's back hoome with us.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetheart - a hug is always good.
*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you - I know you know how it is with dogs.
*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you so, so much.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you.
*hugs*
We're bringing Rask's ashes home this evening. It'll be good to have him with us again. ♥

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

That's a lovely thing to say & really does help - thank you so much.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

That's a lovely, comforting thought - thank you.
Yeah, I bet those two are tearing around the place, having fun! ♥

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetheart.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you!
*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

He was a rescue & we tried to make sure that he always felt secure, safe & loved. He was such a sweet, special boy - we were so lucky to have him. ♥

*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Tonny - that's so kind.
*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

He was my baby, you know? I just miss him. But I know we were lucky to have had him for so long. ♥
I've planted the rose & sprinkled some of Rask's hairs in the soil & I've put a solar light by it - to act as a candle for him.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

I've planted the rose! I mixed some of Rask's hairs into the soil around it & put a solar lamp by it too - like a candle for him. ♥

It is the tiny, routine things, like you checking not to bump Sparkle, that get to you, isn't it? So many habits & loving routines that we build up over the years.
*hugs*

[andnolewen.livejournal.com]

You are most welcome dear*hugs*

[betagoddess.livejournal.com]

I'll be looking forward to pictures of Rascal's rose and the solar lamp. They sound beautiful. =>}

Seventeen and a half years isn't a long life compared to ours, but after so long with Sparkle in our lives, her passing leaves many empty spaces. You're right! That's what gets to you!

::hugs::

[dalehead.livejournal.com]

You have the capacity to love a dog and that love should be lavished on another and that is exactly how Rask would want it. They're so unselfish, dogs, they ask so little and you gave your boy so much. It would be wrong to let that love die with him. *hugs very tight* You can't replace him, of course, but each dog finds their own niche in your life.

Bert has been a bit poorly but he's so bouncy now that he would sit on your feet and look up at you expecting lots of fussing and telling him what a sweetheart he is.

In the meantime, you'll know when it's right. I know what you mean about that void though. It's so hard, my poor darling girl. *hugs some more*

[nakeisha.livejournal.com]

I'm sure you will feel better once he's back with you.

*Hugs you*

[sonicbookmark.livejournal.com]

Oh, baby.

He looked like such a sweet dog and I know how much you loved him. I'm so, so sorry.

*hugs hugs hugs* ♥♥♥

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

I'm so glad that you said that - it really helps 'cus sometimes I feel so guilty when we talk about having another dog but Rask would want us to share that love, I know he would.

I'm so sorry to hear about Bert - I hope he's fighting fit again & up to mischief as usual!
*huggles the Bertmeister*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

He's home. It was very upsetting - more than I'd even imagined - but I feel a little more settled now he's back with us.

*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

That's absolutely beautiful. I'm sobbing but it's good to see it written down. It is worth this pain now - to have had all those beautiful years with our baby boy.

*hugs*
Thanks you, S.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, L.
I do so miss being able to put my arms around him, to kiss his ears & his soft little nose.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you - hugs are good.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you. I can't believe quite what a wreck I am to be honest but it was worth it - to have had him in our lives. ♥
*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you - that's so comforting to know.
*hugs*