Friending

[bluespirit]

I get too emotional & let things upset me too much. I know that - & that's my issue.
I suffer from depression (I had to give up a job I loved because of it) & have to be really careful to insulate myself as best I can from things that will upset me. Some people may think that's cowardly but it's a coping mechanism.
I think I'm going to have to spend less time online & use that time for other things.
If we've grown apart (fandoms/interests change - it happens) or you're only here for certain media posts I might make & those posts may now be ending or you really only want to read my fic or look at my art (it's all posted to my archiving lj: starshinedreams) or for any other reason - then please don't worry about removing me from your flist.
The whole word 'friending' (or 'defriending') is such an emotional minefield but think of it as a reading list. If you want to take me off your reading list then I won't be offended. In a similar way I think I have to make some cuts to my own reading list in the next few days - nothing drastic but just to give me some breathing room.

*hugs*

Comments

[galor5.livejournal.com]

It's interesting that as I was reading your post it was like I was reading something I was saying in my head. I let myself get drawn into things and end up getting hurt. I have to stop and tell myself that I shouldn't get upset, but sometimes there's no way around it. (I had something happen last night that rocked me to the core again and I'm having rethink why I'm even here anymore).

I hope everything is okay, and I know that you and I aren't in the same fandom anymore, and I don't always comment on posts but I still enjoy reading about you and buddy and still miss Rascal. :( But, I understand if you need to make cuts... I should do that again soon, but it's hard.
*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

I know what you mean, sweetheart. I've actually shocked myself by how intensely I've reacted to something in fandom (I literally had no sleep & made myself feel sick with anxiety.) It's made me stop & realise that I need to take a step back. I'm not leaving lj or fandom (& I do hope I didn't sound like a drama queen) but I do need to prioritise my time more.

I know our fandoms have diverged but I enjoy reading your posts too & would like to continue to.
*hugs*