Thank you all so very much

[bluespirit]

I just want to say a huge thank you for all the love & support at Rascal's passing.
I will reply to everyone but I'm still a bit numb at the moment.
I keep hearing him around the house & expecting to see him in his basket or coming to wake me up with a big black nose in my face first thing in the morning (the best way to be woken up ever!)
I haven't been able to put his things away yet - his beds & toys are still where he left them. I don't even want to hoover 'cus I'd be hoovering up his hairs.
I'll do it in my own time - perhaps when we get his ashes & bring him home for good.

In the meantime I've felt the need to be doing a lot of gardening for some reason. We've bought a rose bush to plant in Rask's memory. It's called 'Sunseeker' which we thought was appropriate as he always loved to lie in the sun - he'd follow a patch of sunlight all around the carpet & we had the conservatory built so that he could lie in there when he wanted. I'm comforted by the fact that even on his last morning with us he lay out on the patio in the sunshine.

I've ordered two big canvas prints of Rask - one for the lounge & one for the dining room (though I may get more.) We already have lots of photos of him around the house but I felt the need to stay connected, to be doing something Rascal-related & so I ordered them. They should be gorgeous (because he was) & I can't wait for them to arrive.

I know it's true that Rask had a good, long, happy life & that we have so many (many, many!) wonderful memories of him. However, at the moment I can't help wanting more - I have this gaping hole in my heart & I want him to be here. I know it will get easier with time but he was such a huge personailty.
My beautiful, silly, sweet boy. ♥


Here he is, soaking up the sun last year. (This is exactly where he lay on Wed morning - his favourite patio sunseeking spot!)

Comments

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, sweetheart. And it's true - I'm feeling Rask's loss like I did losing my Dad & I can't make any apologies for that.

*hugs*

The canvas prints look amazing - I just stand gazing at them. I'll post some pics when I can.

We brought Rask's ashes home on Friday & I do feel a little more settled. I finally managed to wash his bedding over the weekend - though I cried beaucse it still smelled like him. (I've kept two of his blankets though, I want to be able to sense him on them.) Now I need to sort his toys out & see if I can find a rescue centre that could use them & the bedding.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you.
I know I'm biased but he really was a sweetheart - so affectionate & loving. He just loved to be with us & us with him. ♥

*hugs*

[nakeisha.livejournal.com]

Oh, I'm sorry to hear that, P. I really am.

*More hugs*

[pixiequeen10thk.livejournal.com]

I've been offline for awhile so I didn't realise. I'm so so sorry to hear that. The passing of a loved pet is always so hard. I still miss my lovely black cat Sootica even though she died many years ago. The canvas prints sound like an excellent idea. I keep a little pic of Sootie in my wallet. It always makes me smile. Sending many sympathies and hugs.

[araestel.livejournal.com]

I'm sitting here bawling again. I know that before long I'm going to have to go through this myself and it sucks. They should live as long as we do! I still have a blanket from my childhood dog. It's one of the few things I was able to take from my mom's and save. *hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, N.
*hugs*

I think it was the physical realsisation that this was it, here he was in this casket in my arms.
But I am glad to have him home - it feels like a milestone.

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thank you so much & I am sorry to hear about Sootie too. I know how you feel. I still miss our family dog, Lordy - I was only four when we had him & nineteen when he passed. He was my childhood companion. I have his picture framed on the wall.
But yes, I've always carried a photo of Rask (playing with his Dad!) in my purse & it never fails to make me smile (though it's a little bittersweet right now, of course.)

*hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

I know, it isn't fair, is it? But they pack so much loving into such a short time - we have to be grateful for that. ♥
Try not to think of what's to come (a long way off, I hope!) - love every moment of today.
*hugs you tight*

[pixiequeen10thk.livejournal.com]

It does get easier with time. You miss them like crazy, but you can smile at the memories rather than just feeling incredibly sad whenever you think of them.

EDIT: for potentially embarassing typo. I may of said I get easier with time ;)

[nakeisha.livejournal.com]

I can imagine it was.

*Hugs*

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

And you've made me smile - so thank you! *g*

[pixiequeen10thk.livejournal.com]

Glad to be of service :)

[araestel.livejournal.com]

Sorry I'm so late in answering. It's been... interesting here. Anyway, I do agree, they give us so much in the time they do have. I just wish they lived a life span of say a parrot. Seventy five years would be amazing!

Brady has some bumps we were going to have removed and we took him in Monday for the bloodwork and there was a problem. He has an elevated level that could indicate Cushings Disease--the same thing her sisters dog died of last year. So we had to take him back yesterday and have more done and now were waiting. *sigh* I certainly hope he doesn't have this. Poor Shelby looked more like a possum than a dog just before she passed. So now we just wait and see.

How's Buddy? :)