Friending

[bluespirit]

I get too emotional & let things upset me too much. I know that - & that's my issue.
I suffer from depression (I had to give up a job I loved because of it) & have to be really careful to insulate myself as best I can from things that will upset me. Some people may think that's cowardly but it's a coping mechanism.
I think I'm going to have to spend less time online & use that time for other things.
If we've grown apart (fandoms/interests change - it happens) or you're only here for certain media posts I might make & those posts may now be ending or you really only want to read my fic or look at my art (it's all posted to my archiving lj: starshinedreams) or for any other reason - then please don't worry about removing me from your flist.
The whole word 'friending' (or 'defriending') is such an emotional minefield but think of it as a reading list. If you want to take me off your reading list then I won't be offended. In a similar way I think I have to make some cuts to my own reading list in the next few days - nothing drastic but just to give me some breathing room.

*hugs*

Comments

[vida-boheme.livejournal.com]

"I get too emotional & let things upset me too much. I know that - & that's my issue. I suffer from depression (I had to give up a job I loved because of it) & have to be really careful to insulate myself as best I can from things that will upset me. Some people may think that's cowardly but it's a coping mechanism."
I understand where you're coming from (fellow sufferer with similar coping mechanism) and there is NOTHING cowardly about recognising your triggers and taking steps to keep your head in a healthy place. *Squishes you* This is a beautifully balanced and honest post and I admire you for it and what it means. <3

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks so much, F. It helps to know that you understand how it is.
*hugs*
I think I've just shocked myself by the intensity of my reaction to certain things & it's time to step back a little bit & protect myself.
I'm not leaving lj or anything (I do hope I didn't come across like a big diva or anything because that really wasn't my intent!) I'm just going to spend more time offline & catch up on my writing, etc rather than getting upset over fandom stuff. I want to love John & Rodney & post my fic & art, & read fic & just enjoy it.

[vida-boheme.livejournal.com]

Darling, you strike me as one of the least diva-ish people in fandom and this post didn't have a hint of drama, just honesty.

Finn xx

[bluespirit-star.livejournal.com]

Thanks, Finn.
I just don't want people thinking this is a cry to come & stroke my ego or anything. It's nothing like that at all. I just felt that I wanted to explain.
I'm not swishing my cape around my shoulders & storming out - just making my flist more managable so that I can hopefully spend more of my online time enjoying things.
*hugs*